I’ve been thinking a lot about what it must feel like to live a life lacking empathy. What would it be like to know that you were responsible for mass murder, enormous suffering, and complete repudiation for integrity?
There have been quite a few suicides this week. All I can think every single time I find out about another one is that they were murdered. Let’s just start calling this what it really is. I have a sinking feeling that if these people would have been provided validation, and dignity, and comfort….. that they all might still be here. The darkness crept in and they felt that the only way to receive relief was to leave their physical body.
I want to take a moment to honor them and their families. The only way I know how to do that is to fight to put the criminals responsible for their suffering and ultimately their demise in prison. For life. Deprivation of Rights under Color of Law charges carry life sentences. Fraud charges that effect people living or dying are pretty serious too. Oh, and don’t forget Racketeering. I refuse to let them die in vain, and by now we are a small army of truth telling cryme fighters.
For anyone reading this reading this that has played with the idea of taking your own life, please know this- There are people in this world who have made it their personal mission to vindicate your personal hell. We believe you. We are shoving the data to PROVE you’re as sick as you feel down the throats of these b@stards. We won’t ever give up, every time we lose a battle we are closer to winning the war. Every time these assholes come out with another slanderous publication denying the existence of your misery they are hammering another nail into their own coffin. Please, don’t let them make you feel defeated. It’s okay to feel lost and devastated. Your suffering is not because you are crazy just because they keep repeating that it is. Your doctors are idiots, your families are dismissing you because thats the easiest way out.
This disease takes you to the deepest depths of desperation and despair. Imagine, your body failing. Feeling your life force literally draining out of you, like how plants wither away when they don’t get watered. Chronic illness is a lot of things. It effects every aspect of our lives and pours into the lives of those who love us. We all know the symptoms. We all know the relentlessness of what it is like to truly suffer. The difference between us and other sick people is validation. It’s not being able to go to the doctor, or the hospital because your disease doesn’t officially exist. Imagine knowing that you’re dying but no one believes you. No one can measure it on a test. No one knows anything about it. So they tell you that you’re just crazy because that’s the only way to get rid of you. Doctors don’t care, they mock you and try to coax you into entertaining the idea that you are just trying to gain attention or have lost touch with reality. Then they tell your family that you’re crazy and not actually physically sick, that it’s all just in your head. It can go either way at that point, whether your family decides to believe you or them.
The reality here is that you are a victim of a crime, and none of this is your fault.
The corruption surrounding this disease has reached a boiling point. The lie is too big to ignore anymore, and I don’t know whats worse- their blatant disregard for human life, or the fact that they really think we are all that stupid. Their go-to defense is usually a jab at our intelligence and ability to think critically. You don’t have to be a scientist to understand science, I think we have made that clear by now. It is not an impossibility for the every day, normal adult (or 10 year old) can understand basic scientific principals. The CDC seems to think if they say that “Chronic Lyme” doesn’t exist enough times that they will somehow brain wash us all into believing them. Well, sorry folks, but our symptoms don’t stop just because you say that YOU don’t believe us.
One of my dearest friends wrote an amazing blog post today, and I want to share it with you:
It is incomprehensible the amount of misery out there. I mean, people are literally killing themselves. It is also incomprehensible that everyone just seems so staunch in their habit to call whatever it is they don’t understand “crazy”.
Why has no one else from within the CDC, IDSA, any University in the country….etc had the original thought to ask the question…. How could this many people all have such a strong delusion, maybe there is something else going on? ActionLyme started exposing this in 1999, they’ve been to Washington DC four times now. FINALLY someone is hearing us.
To remain neutral in the face of injustice makes you just as guilty.
We have the truth on our side.
The day of repudiation will come. I don’t know when. I don’t really care how. But I know why, and it’s because the truth always wins. Even deprivation runs out. Lies and fallacies get weak.
In August of 2016 a letter surfaced from within the CDC. It was called “CDC Scientists Preserving Integrity, Diligence and Ethics in Research (CCD Spider)”. Here is a snippet:
We are a group of scientists at CDC that are very concerned about the current state of ethics at our agency. It appears that our mission is being influenced and shaped by outside parties and rogue interests. It seems that our mission and Congressional intent for our agency is being circumvented by some of our leaders. What concerns us most, is that it is becoming the norm and not the rare exception. Some senior management officials at CDC are clearly aware and even condone these behaviors. Others see it and turn the other way. Some staff are intimidated and pressed to do things they know are not right. We have representatives from across the agency that witness this unacceptable behavior. It occurs at all levels and in all of our respective units. These questionable and unethical practices threaten to undermine our credibility and reputation as a trusted leader in public health. We would like to see high ethical standards and thoughtful, responsible management restored at CDC. We are asking that you do your part to help clean up this house! ………..
………..These actions do not serve the public well. Why is nothing being done to address these problems? Why has the CDC OD turned a blind eye to these things. The lack of respect for science and scientists that support CDC’s legacy is astonishing.
Please do the right thing. Please be an agent of change.
CDC Spider Letter: https://usrtk.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/10/CDC_SPIDER_Letter-1.pdf
The tide is turning. Please, do not lose hope.